Not to good

SO for my first week and a half I did not do good at all! This turned out to be a very stressful and sad week. First weigh in was last monday...the the second was today...

It's TIME!!

It is time that I make some very BIG life changes! Over the 4th of July weekend my mom and me were in a pie eating contest and several very unflattering pictures were taken of me! Lets just say they were probally the most important pictures taken of me....I finally relized how big and unhealthy I have let myself get. I feel like if I post this on my blog it will hold me accountable. SO please know that I am very sensitive about this and am very aware of my weight! Its time to get back to being Alyssa! My life is great..Loving husband, awesome kid and amazing family and friends! I know that I can do this... I lost 60 pounds before I got married! Me and Justin met with my OB doc 4 months ago and he said if I lost weight we could try a few different things to get prego...but here I am still the same weight....210 freaking big pounds!! Wow.. there I said it! Yes I know that is alot! So I am going to start walking and counting calories and I will post pictures and weights every week...This is for myself so that I can see the progress!

These pictures bring tears to my eyes.. How did I let it get this bad!! Just to think I weighed 250 the day I had Tavin.. (I haven't even told Justin that)... I am sure is aware!

Apple Days 7/2012

We had so much fun with the family at the Torrey Apple days and Teegans second birthday!! Justin was shocked at how small the parade is...like 5 floats long! He said if it stayed that small he would keep coming back! Yay! My mom and me were in a pie eating contest which was a life changing moment for me (next post is allllll about that)!!